I really need to learn my place… I think I’ve figured it out though. I know now I can’t make anyone happy. Most of my friends have abondoned me, my family is starting to; I just need to learn that I have to give up my own thoughts and opinions and just go with whatever anyone says. Be a seemingly happy zombie for everyone so I can finally make SOMEONE feel good/happy and go to bed wanting to scream.
I now know how I’m supposed to live my life; dead inside. Now if I could just kill it, I’d finally be okay.